Mystical events before and after the Initiation (into Old_Guru Secret Teaching)

Your disciple, Ngoc Hao, prostrates before Old Guru and Old Disciple.

Please allow me to recount my personal experience of Mysticism and Divine Revelation.

I entered the monastic life to cultivate Buddhism from 1977 until the beginning of 2003, when I came to hear about the lineage of transmission of Old_Guru Secret Teaching (from NQ, HH), the Holy Force, Divine revelations etc...

I was very curious, but for someone who has entered a monastic life (Exoteric Buddhism) for over 20 years, my ego had been maturing with time. I have always thought that all phenomena are created by one's mind..." For me stories about the Holy Force and Divine revelations only occurred during the time of Buddha Sakyamuni and could not have existed in this "end-of- Dharma" time. There may be some truth in them or are they all superstitions?

After HH, my fellow bhiksu was initiated and received the Divine revelation, she advised me to seek for the Dharma from someone called Toni. I replied: In time I will, everything has its time (but deep down I did not want to do it). This was because, for the past few months, I had been seeing in my mind a figure dressed in white, with short hair who looks very much like a Chinese kungfu master. I expected that I would meet and receive from this person something very special and divine. This image appeared ever more frequently, although at that time I did not dare tell anyone because I didn’t know whether I was suffering from hallucinations or not.

Three days before the day I received the initiation I had these consecutive dreams: 1st night: Every pore in my body was discharging pus; it was terrifying. 2nd night: I heard a female voice that said loudly: ‘the fifteenth day full moon’. It was so loud that I woke and unable to fall back to sleep. The 3rd night: someone led me to a conference room with many people present, and pointed to the person standing on the platform and I heard: ‘Toni is the organizer of the meeting’ (at that time I hadn’t met Toni).

The next morning, I decided to seek for the Initiation, but only spoke with the person I knew as Toni over the telephone. After hearing Toni’s first sentence: ‘Sham mind results in sham Tao (religious cultivation), sincere mind results in meeting with the True guru’, I broke down and cried. And Toni gave me the initiation right then, praying for me over the telephone. I felt a force moving my arms above my head with my wrists joining together and my hands were moved in a circular motion. Then my right hand moved up and the left hand moved down (both hands still moving in a circular motion). The motions were repeated three times.

After being initiated, I had a dream in which I saw Vajra Treasury Bodhisatva as my spiritual Mentor.

Receiving the scroll on the 15th
After practicing the Dharani ( the group of 5 mantras) recitation, I was allowed to receive the Celestial Scroll (Yantra). That day was the 15th of June (the day of the Full Moon); corresponding to the dream I had on the 2nd night before I was initiated: ‘the fifteenth day full moon’ which I did not understand.

Upon entering the room where the altar was, I became very light headed, my limbs turned flaccid and my heart felt as if it wanted to jump out of my chest. All because in front of me was Toni, a real person, an exact image of what I had had in my mind for a long time. I realized that it was not from my imagination. I made an effort to compose myself before taking a seat. (At that point there was only Toni sitting in the room, dressed in white and reciting the dharanis) . Also present were 4-5 fellow students. When Toni asked for my name, I couldn’t hold back further and I dropped on my knees with my face to the ground and started to cry loudly. I could not stop crying and Toni's eyes were also filled with tears. At that point Toni said (but through Toni’s voice I knew it was actually the Divine spirit who was talking): “I have a close connection with you through many previous lives, now that we meet again it is ok to cry." Only then was I able to control myself and stopped crying. This has never happened to me for it was not easy for someone who has entered a monastic life to cry in front of other people, let alone kneeling in front of a secular person.

Then I feel the Holy Force pushing me forward to receive the Celestial Scroll. In all honesty, every time I thought or recounted this event the same strong emotion came flooding back (I feel weak in my limbs and tears overflowing). And so while writing this story I have had to stop a few times...
It was really an unforgettable story of mysticism since I received the Dharma from Old_Guru Secret Teaching.

My story is slightly longwinded but I hope our fellow readers would not mind too much.

Divine Beings had prepared for me to receive the Initiation, through successive dreams which I now understand. The first was the symbol of cleansing and purifying of the body (pus coming out at every pores), the 2nd foretold the day of my Initiation, and the 3rd point to the actual meeting.
I'd like to express my sincerest gratitude to the Divine Spirits who have opened ‘the door’ for me. I also appreciate Old guru and Old Disciple for their transmission and dissemination of Old_Guru Secret Teaching Teachings to lead us through long dark nights.